Oops!!.......I think I've dropped the rope!!

[Silent Chrleader]

Hey, [[[[BM]]]], [[[[GG]]]]], and [[[[Treese]]]].

Thank you guys so much for your support and encouragement!!

J was supposed to call me last night, but didn't. And no contact today either, so I'm not sure what to think, but no biggie. It's all good.

I'm having to come down hard on my son. He hasn't been going to school and is about to get disenrolled. I went over to the house because he was there this weekend. He had told me H gave him work to do over there, so I gave him the key, but then H told me that the work he gave S was in the yard. So, I went over and checked the place. There is a huge dent in a wall downstairs. S says he "fell". I'm pretty sure he was drinking. A bunch of the windows were unlock and the door too. So I locked everything up.

S took money out of my purse again without permission (I've lost count of the times he's done this). Tomorrow I am taking him for eval for another drug/alcohol program. Then in the afternoon we have C. We gotta figure a way to get this kid turned around!! I have now told him that when I leave in the morning to go to work, he has to leave too. He can't be in the apartment without me here. We'll do that for a week, and see how he does. If he does well (i.e. school, and/or a job, etc.), I will give him back some the key and try again. I love my son so much and I don't want to "kick him out", but I can't allow him to be in my home if I can't trust him. I can't afford it!

I had a little bit of a heated discussion with H today. I had called him to let him know I was going over to the house. We also ended up talking a little about the bankruptcy, and H made a comment about how we'll each get a house. I asked why HE got the "dream house". He said because he could afford it. Remember he had promised me (in front of the kids) that we would sell it if we D? Well, of course with the market the way it is, that's not a good financial decision now. But, I told him that I didn't appreciate the fact that his word seems to mean nothing, and that he should be aware that I will never sign any papers that give him sole posession of the dream house! Ever! I didn't get really emotional either. I just told him how I felt. I said his idea about continuing for us both to own it if fine for now, because that's the best for us both financially, but I just wanted him to realize where I stood. In the end, he apologized for sounding "flip" in his talking about the house and he meant it when he said that he did not want to hurt me or "shaft" me either practically or financially. So, the conversation ended well.

Went to deep water aerobics last night with my mom, step dad, D24 and a friend of mine. It was a lot of fun, and we plan to keep going every Tuesday and Thursday.

Oh, in answer to your question, Glam, S17 and I are supposed to be driving down to Southern CA at the end of March to pick up some furniture and stuff of my Dad's that my MIL has at her house. When my Dad died, we put it in her garage because we had flown down there. We haven't been back down there with the truck since then (always flew), so the stuff is still there. So, if I can stand to be with S17 in the truck for hours on end, then we'll go down to get the stuff during his spring break......although now that I think of it, since he's f'ing up school so bad, it may not matter if it's during spring break or not!

I'm tired. I think I am going to go lay down and maybe read a book.