Damn - they locked my favorite thread....

Chronicalling

In keeping with my latest endeavor, that is to not analyze absolutely every feeling and event that occurs to me, I have decided that the preservation of certain events needed a proper title - hence: "chronicalling."

So, I am moving and I need boxes. I am intensely Scottish (really, I am, it's part of my ancestry) meaning I like very much not parting with my hard-earned money. It occurred to me that we might still have lots of boxes from our move from Chicago to this southern city. Problem is, I refuse to enter the attic without either (1) someone who will kill the large, southern-grown - overgrown - insects, or (2) certainty that what I need is both there and easily locatable. So, I sent Z an email because I knew he would know if we still had boxes and precisely where they would be found.

He called tonight to see if I had found the boxes. I thanked him, telling him I had found them and was ready to be on my way. He managed to keep me talking for about 30 minutes. He seemed to need to connect to someone he knows cares about him, at least that is what I sensed. Not really sure because I did not ask and I am not now analyzing.

He accidentally called me "sweetheart." I said nothing because it did not faze me. He apologized, which seemed humorous to me, as if he called me "bi!ch" or some such. I told him 13 years is a long time to develop a habit. It was truly no big deal to me.

On to me. I spent a lot of time today looking at doctoral programs in philosophy. When I was in college, that was the plan and then life happened. Well, I have learned that life will happen no matter what, so I had better pursue my dreams. Though I should have been working, it was truly energizing to read about these programs. I am such a diifferent person today than I was when I first thought about this twenty years ago. It is still just a plan in my mind, but it is now a solid plan - one I will not give up. Not sure when I can start or if I can do it full-time but I will do it. All part of my resolution to keep Veronica out of the shadows and in the light where she thrives.

V.


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