I believe that M is a commitment. Just because it doesn't go the way I want it to go, or things change, or a serious problem is outted, and I experience unhappiness, does not mean I can give up and walk away. Whatever needs to be done to work things through is the job of a M.
I don't think people respect the idea of a long term commitment because look at the D rate in this country. Look at people's behavior and the reasons they end M.
I came here looking for support to go through whatever I need to do in order to be successful in maintaining the M. My H has serious problems, he refused help and put himself and others in danger and disrupted our household daily. So I asked for a separation to allow him time to accept his problems and need for help. He is doing that now. There is a long way to go yet.
I am lonely most of the time. I have doubts and am haunted by bad memories at times which when I talk about them seem to just make me feel worse. I need to heal, but I feel more confused than any other emotion. I have a full life but don't feel complete without my H. But at the same time, I am afraid of being hurt, I am afraid that things will not get better, I don't trust him, and don't feel that he can be there for me. It's a full plate in such a short time.
