I was thinking about what you said some more while I was making soup and I thought ... I think there is a way for me to use your suggestion. instead of like, "the postcard is great, the new photos are great, blah blah blah" I could just say, "by the way, nice postcard. have fun in LA."
I think part of me feels like if I stop wanting as much as I do, then there will be no wanting happening at all. but *probably* the truth is more like... if I ever really want to experience being wanted, I need to let go when he is ready to let go.
I think I'll call him after my audition. Maybe while I'm still in Boston, since that's a little sexier. My audition is monday at 12.30, so... sometime after that. This is something new for me, every other time I've called him back within a day or two.
