Standing on the Edge

[native]

Kenn,

Haven't heard anything much from the alien, other than that she was putting her profile up on Stupid.com.

I struggle with resentment and anger daily towards her. I understand she has personal difficulties that needed special attention and that I let her down in my ignorance.

I really do think that for the longest time she tried the best she knew how to address her needs, however ineffectivly.

But I have just lost complete respect for her since it is obvious that I have made my amends as I became aware of things, and I have shown her my willingness to forgive the past pain she has caused me, and that I have remained open ad vulnerable to her rejection or acceptance.

Just the way she handled it, after I tried so hard to show her my goodwill....I can't accept it. I am soooooo angry.

And I don't think I can ever really trust her or become vunerable to her again.

Other than that...just great.

Actually, in spite of the 'recession' my plaster/restoration business is doing well. I just hope it continues as I have so much more debt to service now that she has left me with the mortgage and all te credit card debt.