thanks for breaking it down for me like that. I really appreciate it.
I actually planned the message before I left it, basically that's the way I would respond to a friend ... that's a normal level of exuberance/enthusiasm from me. It might have been a little bit more than normal, but like 15% more than normal, not 200%. i see what you're saying about the text--but to explain a little, when we were together we would have weirdness with not getting voicemails and texts that we had left for each other with some frequency--so I do wonder sometimes (not just with him) it people actually get my messages. I thought he might not be calling me back because he didn't want to deal with the resume, so I just wanted to tell him I didn't need help anymore. ????
I have thought about being completely indifferent in my communications with him, or even just colder, but I think that could be a total discouraging turnoff to him completely, or might actually be just me spewing my anger in a passive agressive way. ???
I am not sure how to be nonchalant without being totally fake... in real life I am normally: enthusiastic, perplexed, overwhelmed, excited, satisfied, thrilled, depressed, confused, happy, but not a lot of "nonchalant".
Maybe I could start with "calm", which is something I've been working on being with him for almost a year now.
Maybe I could get lessons from Lisa.
Um, your ex has been emailing you like crazy, so don't you forget that, you little english muffin!
I have no idea what is going on either. it's like there is no escalation on his part, but whenever I seem to really stop doing anything, he seems to make a step forward. I can't figure it out either.
thanks for posting to me, sweet Ali. it really means a lot. LOVE, T
