The same feelings of devistation keep coming back. It is hard to get them to go away. I guess that is why I have not REALLY started DBing. After our talk last night she realy made me feel there is no chance for the M right now. I know god works in mysterious ways. I am trying my hardest to just give it to god. I hope I am almost there. My heart is not hurting as bad right now. Once I get there I will be able to work in myself. Please pray for me. I will get to where I need to be one way or another.
Me 41 W 44 Together 7 years Married 6 Bomb Dec 2 08
