I didn't support him as well as I could have regarding immigrating. I wasn't honest enough and a bit selfish because I enjoyed my life here. I did always say to him we'll go if it's what you want and that I'd go anywhere in the world to make him happy but maybe he sensed that we were looking in different directions.
How I wish he would sit down and discuss this with me. Help me understand what is going on with him so I can maybe help. I don't believe he would ever intentionally hurt me, he's too good a man. He can't help how he feel can he.
I never want to give up or lose him but I can't stand to be the cause of his pain.
Why was I so blind and selfish? Even if there is/was another woman, I still see my part in this.
