H has officially filed. Please help me!!!!!

[MomInPain]

Karen & Native, I know.......it's something I really try not to think about but I'm pretty sure your right. No matter what I say, he continues to deny. It really pisses me off. I know it would hurt like hell to know for sure, but it may make it easier to let go of him.

So my A flaked on me. Nice. I went to his office and no one was there. H was suspicious thinking I am trying to stall.

He was just full of good news.....NOT. Our refinance isn't going through, of course it is my fault because of a CC that isn't current because I don't have a job to pay it. It's not his fault at all because he couldn't hold off for a bit and wait to file for D.

He has also said that he would like to do the 50/50 custody. Now I know I should be happy, because it was something I offered to him, and I am glad he want's to spend more time with our kids. But at the same time I am sad because that is less time I get with my kids. I'm sad that I'm going to be a part time parent. I'm worried because I don't know if he is doing this to hurt me, to save money on child support, or because he want's to spend more time with the kids.
And I have to figure out if I can live without my kids for 1 week or 2 weeks at a time.
I hate him for doing this to me. To us.