Sorry SC that you are a little sad. Those memories will come and go. Try to snap your mind into another state when that happens.
Also caution on the dating scene. Your emotions are too raw to get involved. I just had another dream this time about me moving into an apartment with ex h's brother and his wife and kids. In the dream he was mentioning that he and his wife were not doing good. I said try being separated.
In many ways, I really can't stand these dreams. It just dawned on me as I was typing this that I just started taking an herbal supplement for the brain. I wonder if that is why I am all of a sudden remembering all my dreams. Hmmmmmm!
Stay strong!
Me 50 H 42 S 22 S 9 D 7 M 12 T 17 H moved out 8/2006 H moved home 1/2007 for 3 weeks H moved home 5/2011 for good
"Learn from yesterday ~ Live for today ~ And hope for tomorrow"
Thank you, GG, as always for your patient concern and support for me. I am so lucky to have you as my friend! And, I think you may have something there about those herbal supplements. What is it? The best thing you can take for your brain is CoQ10!! Seriously, it's the bomb!! (that's good!). Look it up......
Actually I had a great day!!! I checked my e-mail this morning and had a really amazing surprise! I didn't get a reply from M (the guy I talked about in my previous post), but I did get one from another blast from my past who I will call J. J was a major crush of mine in Junior High School. When I was in 8th grade and he was in 7th (13/14 years old). We used to go with all our friends to the roller rink together. And it was like a soap opera....all that early teen juggling of who likes whom. J and I always seemed to be circling each other but could never really get it together if you know what I mean. And then I went to high school and he had another year in junior hi. Then when he got into high school, he always seemed to avoid me, or just be cold with me.
Several years ago, I saw J's name on a reunion site, but didn't e-mail him because I thought that if he wanted to get in touch with me, he could contact me. Then the other night when I was surfing and found the other old friends, I also saw J, and I went ahead and dropped him a short note saying that I remembered him fondly and hoped he had a good life..... and I got the following reply!
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Well,well well, I allways wonderd if I would ever hear or see you I think of you all the time! You were the girl that first stole my heart!!! I don't know why we never ended up w/ one another I guess everyone regrets something in their life. I do still ware a hat to this day (not the same one) ha ha ha. Life has been ok I still live in the same house bought from my parents, married/divorced daughter lives with me, but you know whats REALLY ironic my wife's name was Silent Cheeleader! Can you believe that? The skating rink is still there I have alot of memories of you and that place. God, hearing from you made my day today thank you. Would love to talk to you and talk about the what I think were some of the best days of my life. Well I have probably said too much, you can e-mail me @ ........or write, .........., or call ***********ha ha ha same phone number. Anyway hope to hear from you take care. Love always J
I can't believe that!!?? I about fell out of my chair!! He never could spell, but he always was a sweet guy! That obviously did wonders for my ego!! I replied to him and will see what happens. I am going down there at the end of March to get that stuff that my MIL has at her house......maybe I'll get a chance to have dinner with J or something. That would be nice.
And speaking of MIL, as a cherry on top of my day, I came home and in my mail was a card from my MIL saying that "encouraging thoughts are coming my way"......She signed it "Love Always, Mom G".
So, yes, I had a remarkably good day and I have a warm fuzzy in my heart right now!!
TJ
Me45,H49 D24,S18 M26,T28 Bomb 3/19/08 Sep 6/23/08 EA/PA with Secretary 2007-8 3/2009 H moved in w/OW2 7/2009 Let him go w/Love. 8/2009 Legally Sep'd
M is explained in reply post to BM at 1:09am yesterday (the 23rd). He is the "what if" in my life, if I have one. He is the only other guy in my life that I ever felt that special connection with that I always felt could have grown into something real and lasting..........but circumstances just seemed to go against us, and then I met H......
But, this guy has a warm place in my heart......
TJ
Me45,H49 D24,S18 M26,T28 Bomb 3/19/08 Sep 6/23/08 EA/PA with Secretary 2007-8 3/2009 H moved in w/OW2 7/2009 Let him go w/Love. 8/2009 Legally Sep'd
Wow sounds like you are having a blast from the past. Remembered another dream today. The herbal supplement for memory is ginko biloba. Well it has definatly made me remember my dreams. Hmmmmm!
Me 50 H 42 S 22 S 9 D 7 M 12 T 17 H moved out 8/2006 H moved home 1/2007 for 3 weeks H moved home 5/2011 for good
"Learn from yesterday ~ Live for today ~ And hope for tomorrow"
Hey S, so happy for you that you are GAL and enjoying some nice memories! I had such a difficult childhood that I dont have many, but there are a few good ones!
Let me know what happens if you get in touch with J or M. What fun!
Right now I am so very amazed and excited and scared and........Have gone back and forth with J via e-mail today. He's supposed to call tonight, but hasn't yet.......I don't want to post the e-mails here,...
I am feeling things that I have not felt in a very long time! {Even before the bomb with H} And it feels so good! But it is so scary too! And I don't know where all this is leading me....and I don't want to make a mistake! J has expressed so many beautiful things and seems to have become a very special man. He has been a single father for many years. He coached his daughter through Fast Pitch Softball from 8yrs to 14, and also coach Junior High Girls volleybal for 6th, 7th & 8th grades as well. He sent me a picture of him and his daughter on her 18th birthday. She's a beautiful girl! (I told him we would have to keep my S17 away from her!)
I don't believe he expresses the things he has said lightly, and I would die if I ended up hurting him. I know he doesn't even know me now, and I know I could never live up to his memories/fantasies, but I have been honest in telling him that, and he just doesn't care. Says he has no doubt I am still beautiful! But, the reality is I am a woman that sleeps with a c-pap machine for sleep apnea (so attractive to snuggle up to someone with an alien strapped to her head!!), and I have stretch marks like a freakin' zebra on my lower stomach from my first pregnancy when D24 dropped so quickly before she was born. And I have lost 50 lbs in the past year, but still have 50 more to drop to be happy with where I am, and even that will never be less than "pleasingly plump". I have medication I take that without it, I have to go to the bathroom like every 15 minutes! I have another medication I take for panic attacks, and even then I can still get "wiggy" under stress (and there are some sexual side effects of these meds that I don't need to go into.....) and I have a kid that can't seem to stop making poor decisions.
I told J that he has a very rude awakening coming. But, he still wants to see me. He has property in Oregon and said he could come up to meet with me and have lunch! (His property is a good 8 hours away.....that's a long way to drive for "lunch"). I told him that S17 and I are driving down there the end of March to pick up stuff from my MIL's house. J got so excited, you'd I offered him the moon....
I know I am WAY overthinking this. We could meet and he would see that I am by no means he fantasy woman.....and we could laugh and have a great time talking about old times and catching up, and that could be the end of it. But my mind is spinning with "what ifs"!!.....
One thing I do feel is that I need to follow this and see where it goes. I think that if I didn't I would always wonder......
Even my MIL has told me to move on.....
TJ
Me45,H49 D24,S18 M26,T28 Bomb 3/19/08 Sep 6/23/08 EA/PA with Secretary 2007-8 3/2009 H moved in w/OW2 7/2009 Let him go w/Love. 8/2009 Legally Sep'd
OMG, S. You and I are like twins in the medical department. I just got diagnosed with sleep apnea, I take meds for anxiety and panic attacks, have to lose 30 pounds just add a neuromuscular disease for me.
But anyway, nothing wrong with meeting an old friend the way I see it. I am sure he remembers a wonderful girl with a great sense of humor who is kind and fun.
