Divorce looming #4

[K4D]

Thanks.

We signed the waiver of service, the custody agreement and our own agreement tonite after I modified it severely. I'm good with it all now.

I will be leaving for Florida Thursday morning so she will get all the space and time she wants. The only thing left is for me to approve of the divorce decree which will happen in late March sometime.

She wants me gone. Consider it done. I will arrive in Tampa Florida Friday night. My dads birthday is Friday night. But he is catholic so lint is going on. So we will do something for his birthday over the weekend.

My daughters are set up on webcam and have cell phones, so I can be in constant communication with them.

My W has no intention of stopping the D. Why should she. She is already sleeping with OM. Its not like delaying the D keeps anything from happening.

I have alot of self training to get through in Tampa so that will help occupy my time. The beaches are nice. I have alot of friends in Jacksonville that I will make a weekend trip or 2 up to see. That is only 3 hours away. Also planning on driving to Key West while there. I have never been there. Gotta make sure I get on that softball team as well.

I am building up some plans to help me detach. Jacksonville trips will be hard because that is where we lived for 5 years. So many memories there. Its going to be hard to take. But I will enjoy seeing my friends.

I asked W if I could take my dog with me to Tampa. She said no. That is her guard/alert dog. I said fine.

The truth is that I have this fear that once I am in Florida, I am not going to want to come back to Dallas. Dallas is where my W left me and D'd me. Kind of puts a black mark on the city. But I have to because this is where my kids are. Florida is really awesome though.

Tonite after I signed the papers for a brief few minutes I actually felt a relieved feeling come over me. It was very strange and I wondered why. But then shortly after I became angry about the whole situation.

One more day left here. I am not allowed to attempt to reconcile with my W til January 1st 2010. Thats fine. I can live with that for 10 months.

Kevin