Life after exposure

[Still Waters]

That's what I think too, Karen. Even though she has sworn that the A is over (she said it ended in January), I don't believe her. You can't go from lying through your teeth to your H and entire family for 4 months to being trusted just by sending a couple of remorseful emails.

She knows that I won't believe her until her actions give me a reason to trust her.

I guess my biggest dilemma is deciding what happens if I discover that she's still having an A. Do I still want her back if that happens? Hard to say right now. But for her to lump another betrayal and fresh pack of lies on top of the pile she still hasn't cleaned up yet, might be the last straw for me.

And that makes me wonder if I should try to find out if she's still having an A. If it's going to be a deal breaker for me, why prolong this? Of course I don't know if it'll be a deal breaker for sure. This is just me thinking out loud here. This whole thing has been a rollercoaster, so who knows how I'll feel about it tomorrow.