Renee, You now have to prove to yourself that you can go on w/your life and not call him. Pretend he's deceased. Do for you and your son.
As for his comments, he does want to be left alone. Things aren't as great as you may think they are in his life. As for the ow's myspace info, don't go there. All it does is upset you. Delete the url and go on w/your life. This man may or may not return, we really don't know. But the one thing we all know is that he wants to be left alone.
End your day on this mantra "I will not contact him in any way. I will continue my journey on my own. I need to prove to myself that I can do this."
Good luck!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
