The Flames are Still Rising....

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Still doing fairly well. I'm really trying to focus on K and I and leave H out of my head...as much as possible. I think I've been able to do a fairly decent job as of late. But, with his son coming in the next couple weeks.....who knows how that is going to affect me. I kind of pushed it out of my head. As a matter of fact...I totally forgot at one point. I think I'm blocking it out. That kind of scares me...but, if I need to deal with it...why deal with it until absolutely necessary. If I try to deal with it now....it won't make it hurt any less when it happens.

So, I noticed that H has been talking about his Ex..the one who divulged so much about their R and how messed up he was towards her....the ex he used to talk horribly about...the ex he contacted a month after we were M asking to be friends and meet for dinner...the same ex comes up in conversation the other day....so, I think...he's looking again...for someone...something new. Nice, real, nice...and guess what? It's not me! But, then again.....I'm the evil one who makes him sooo unhappy. So, now I just back off and keep my distance...