She has now asked me twice in as many days what I want her to do. I have said both times that she is an adult and that I won't tell her what to do. I'm not sure if she is trying to trap me into saying that that I want her to stay, or if she really is looking for guidance from me. I tend to think the former just because she knows how I feel about the separation and she knows that the kids really miss her.
Another good thing is that any and all talk of a D is completely gone. In fact, she says that she doesn't want a D at all. Naturally there is the "tiny" problem of her fantasy life in Germany and that she is still in full WAW/MLC mode.
One (admittedly nice) problem I am having is making my 180's stick when she is around. Strong, confident, and independent is what I am shooting for, but then she gets sick, or starts crying and asks for me to hold her and I just totally cave and give her what she wants. I have never been able to deny her my affection when she asked for it (well, maybe on a few occasions years ago).
I have told her and promised her that I will move back to Germany with her when the kids are grown (~6 years or so) and that I will take classes and read books and such in the meantime to build my language skills. The remorse and guilt are really starting to affect her and I know her resolve is wavering.
Me40 WAW37 M18 T20 S18,14 D13 EA Bomb 6/08 Sep 11/20/08 Ret 08/09 Sep/Filed 11/09
