This is going to hurt, not to take away any of your unique pain, but it is not unique, what your saying isn't specific just to you, if you find a piece of advice you think is good, give it a real shot, give it a few weeks, more than two to see if it helps, almost nothing is going to work the first time or first day or even first week you try it. But don't give up on an idea until after a few weeks.
I have two questions: Is there something you have always wanted to do...school, class, or project that you felt you were unable to dobecause there wasn't enough time because you were married with children?
What are your fears? Simple one or two. Snakes, heights, water.
Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn. - C.S. Lewis
Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B. - Jack3Beans
Listen without defending; Speak without offending - FaithinAK