Ready2Change (9) Divorce Papers Signed

[Ready2Change]

It has been 1 year (and 6 days) since the bomb. The D is finalized. It is time to let my emotions out again. I stuffed them down during the D process.

My wedding anniversary was Feb 15th. I did good keeping busy and GAL. I went to the movies and watched "Grand Torino". A scene in the move was very sad. It "triggered" an overwhelming sadness response in me. I chose to let it stay and not stuff it down. I let the feelings stay and went home. If felt good to let the tears flow. After wards, I realized I was sad about the M ending.

I also watched "fireproof" a few days ago. It triggered more tears.

Baby Goal with MsR2C: She has hung up on me about 20 times over the past year. She hung up on me last week, but then sent a "Sorry for hanging up on you". Positive steps (slower than you would ever imagine)

Baby goal with MsR2C: She actually answered the phone when I called to speak with kids (I was kinda in shock and I didn't even recognize her voice!)

I am in a good place and easily and cheerfully answer the phone when she calls.