((((Lodo)))) My dear sweet friend...Deeply & sincerely thank-you. These touched my soul & I cried this morning reading them. I'm blessed to call you friend & confidant. You are especially keen in knowing just the right thing to share.
It has been a restless night, I am tired, the emotions are close to the surface. It is not a day I have to give to emotion... much to do in my 'life' today.
In making decisions for life past May, the practicality of finances & emotional tug of "saving my life", conflicts heavily with "mending others' lives", especially my daughters.
Everyone has an opinion, who knows me better than me? Who knows my daughter better than her father & I (& depending on the day, he agrees with me & then not)?
There will be other jobs, just not today, maybe not this month or this year.. .& then what?
There will be no other daughters to raise & parent, teach, guide, mentor for the next four years... & then what?
I'm not sure she'll choose to go with me, her choice to 'save her own life' may be on a different path than me saving mine at this point in time and I'm not sure I can leave her voice behind.
I'm sad & discouraged. Bridge
Divorced 03/2010 Mom to two amazing kids
Taking the road less traveled because those encountered on the way may be just as unique.
