In case anyone has been wondering about my Situation. So far everything has improved so.......much. My wife has become the wife I had before and more. I guess I'll never really know if she actually had a PA. But the thought always crosses my mind daily. I'm getting better at forgiveness but what am I'm being forgiving about. I can live with an EA. Even though my W says it wasn't even an EA and just dirty texting. She no longer talks with OM W and OM W I think has gotten the picture that my W is done with her as well. I think my W realized that the only way to make our M good again, that she could no longer have contact with OM W since it brings me back to all the hurt. I told my DB coach that the only way I would leave my W over this is if she continued a friendship with OM W. I needed something to stand on. I told myself a long time ago that if I was ever cheated on I would walk and I could do that now if need be. The one thing that made me stick around were our children. And through this I've come to work on my M. But for any reason I feel like something like this happens again. To leave will be easy. It's funny how your thinking changes on certain matters when they happen to you. I heard a saying the other day from a reality show star and it was "God will not give you more than you can handle." So if I'm having a bad day and start obsessing over everything I remind myself of that saying. I'm sure someday I'll be over this, but my W has broken a trust that will take a while to build up. Ever since she spoke with my DB coach and I told her I had a DB coach she has been even more supportive of me and the improvements I've showed from things that I was doing that hurt her. When it's all said and done. I hope and pray our M is better than before it got bad. Just wanted to vent a little.........."The Power of Love is a curious thing. Make a grown man weep and another man sing." Huey Lewis and the News.
