The Flames are Still Rising....

[blindsided1]

You know T, no one has ever requested that kind of drink and I'm not sure how I would get it to you. I see this on many threads, but never had the pleasure. So, if you would stear me in the right direction...I would be happy to buy you a drink.

ST - it was cool. The girls are really cute with each other.

I didn't really get to post too much today. But, I have to say I feel pretty solid....for now anyway.... H came over last night to drop off K. I was cooking and he hung out for a little while. He was actually pleasant for a change. I didn't cling, I didn't hug him good bye. K and he kissed and hugged for what seemed forever before he left. I miss the fact that we aren't all together. But, I do know he loves her, a lot. I just hope that's always going to be the case. I miss him, but I feel really detached lately. It doesn't scare me so much anymore. Not sure what that's all about. But, there are even times when I am really not attracted to him. And, then there are times that I am. It's weird. But, I have really been trying to realize and understand that I have no control over any of what he does. I am finally starting to really "get" that. And, when I find myself trying to control the sitch with him....I step back and remind myself that I can't control it....I can't control him...but, I CAN make things worse. That gives me the motivation to walk away.

Tomorrow Softball starts...pray for me.