Slowly but surely - detach and 180

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Tonight my Sis is coming to stay the night with her new twins and I am so looking forward to spending some time with her. She always make me feel so good.

I'm having an OK day. I am feeling like I need to spend a few days thinking about how much I love my W. I think I have lost touch with why I am doing all this. I have gotten so into avoiding and ignoring her and not enjoyed being around her. It is one thing to purposely stay away and 180 but I should enjoy this time in the same house. I also think it would help me be more friendly. I think I have taken my staying away and not initiating conversation a little to far and seemed stand offish and cold. Need to work on detached but friendly. =)