I know it's hard, this is why it's recommended to fill your time with GAL activities. Can you listen to a book during your commute? That really keeps your mind occupied, much better than music. Do NOT go see movies that will remind you of your sitch. I learned this the hard way! (But I was trying to see all the Oscar pics before the awards...) Other movies are a good distraction though. Or taking some type of class. Don't know what to tell you about work. Maybe you can write down a few goals of what you want to accomplish during the day so you can having something visual to remind you to stay on task.
And see your doctor about sleeping pills. They help. A lot.
Keep working, it will get easier.
Thanks Pearlharbr - I'm so grateful for this community and talking to people that have been where I am.
I have been listening to podcasts on my commute and that helps some but I find my mind wandering back to her.
I am looking into taking some online college classes. My IC suggested it and I hadn't even thought of it but it's a good way to GAL and distract myself. And work will reimburse so it won't even cost me. =)
I have an appointment with my Dr on Wed morning to get sleeping pills. I am really happy to finally get in because I really need them right now.
Me-38 W-44 D8 & D6 together '95, Wed '97, Bomb 11/18/08 Still in same house