WAW New life with OM

[ppenton]

Wow, thanks running and 25yrs, both have helped me. I am trying my best to let W have her space and I have not talked about our R since she told the kids she was leaving on Feb 1. I have been working on me and making changes I have wanted to do for a long time but never took the initiative. The change I am working on is being more assertive and build up my self-esteem/confidence. I have already seen a difference at my work as I talk more in meetings than I have in the past and my boss wants me to facilitate meetings and run projects. This is all scary and exciting as I believe I will only grow into a better person for myself and my kids. I have told the kids that their mother loves them and this has nothing to do with them.
I am working on letting go as I know in my heart W does want to be happy and I also want her to be happy. Of course, I want her to be happy and with me but I cannot control that. I'm having better days since the bomb and have been busy GAL and need to work on more 180s.
Today after I cooked dinner, cleaned dishes, did a load of laundry, went to the YMCA to exercise then back home to help with homework and had to log into work for about an hour. Another long day but its great being home with the kids all the time!!