I've been in the place dealing with a similar situation when my H was acting like your H. I know that you must go to bed saying 'who is that person'. I did. I still can't understand why he left. We didn't argue. I wasn't a seahag. I supported and encouraged him. I'm in good shape. I'm very patient, blah, blah, blah. I just don't get it.
What bothers me is that the world around you and me can't understand why we still love and choose to go through it and wait? People feel sorry for me because I do not date, I'm not interested in anybody else, etc. They think that I'm wasting my time. They want me to angry and express it to him. I don't talk to anyone about this except a couple of friends, and they even ask me, when will I be ready to move on? Noone really encourages me but Laurie and my Mom. Others see that it has taken a long time for A (my H) to even talk to me, BUT I want to have hope, too.
I live everyday in this rollercoaster ride. Sometimes, it is worth it, and sometimes, I wonder if it will ever end. Today, I'm down and I'm hanging on, too. I'm back to 'going dark'. It sucks...big time. I have to believe that the rollercoaster will slow down and drive smoothly.
