What has been so hard about finding me? I feel like I dropped off the end of the earth since starting a new one.
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Thanks for the response and encouragement. It isn't like I hadn't had these thoughts before now. I have been certain what I wanted all along just as he had been firm about what he wants. The difference has been that he used drinking to avoid dealing with his feelings and I tried looking for solutions, resolutions, giving him time and space to sort it out, and turned myself inside out to be sure I was giving it my all.
I have had doubts a long time. I thought time apart would allow forgiveness on both parts. After forgiveness I expected resolution and working on the R. I thought I was at forgiveness but his behavior since the separation continues to tear me apart. Funny, because his calls suggest we need to start at this point - forgiveness. But with him, in my experience, his sensibilities don't last. So I am not feeling quick to recover this time.
