It is out of my hands. Its in Gods hands. I do need to learn to detach and let it go.
Its hard letting it go mentally and emotionally. I know she walked away from this M months ago and I am the only one still in it.
I guess I keep thinking there is still good in her. I have seen it for years. Wow, I sound like a jedi knight. But I know there is. She is just having a MLC right now. All of this attention from guys, money, etc is just to much for her to handle. At some point down the road I think she will realize things. But it may be a very very long time from now. And by then, she may be in another M and feel its to late. Or she may never look back and care. I don't know. I'm not sure with her. Something has gone haywire in her. I know I can't fix it.
I just know that I love her and want us to work things out. But I can't do it on my own. She has to want to also. And that has to come from within her. There isn't much I can do to bring that out in her at this time.
Kevin
Me 36, W 37 M: 08/02/97 D13, D9 1st Bomb 02/08 Reconciled 04/08 2nd Bomb: 09/08 W filed for D 02/04/09 Separated 03/09 D dismissed 06/09/09 Still separated...
