Why do I get sucked in to these things. I honestly can't see it. I know, believe me I know it might never happen. And I know I need to do it for me. Not her. It is so hard.
Yesterday. I get a text where's this?? It as something I was supposed to to find for her so I had to reply. She said thanks. Then she text me if she brought a tire home from her work if I can look at it. And that she bought me 2 pair of pants. The pants were cause earlier in the week I told her I need some and have no money. Was not expecting that. I told her yes 2 the tire and thnks for text pants.
Then she text me about a house we were supposed to go look at. Twice. I ignored her. Then she called. Still ignored her. Delt with it when I got home.
Today we went and looked at the house. Have not liked the houses we were looking at so we decided to try and save our house. And stay. I thought there was no saving it.
After getting home she had to go to the store. While she was out she saw our son and they decided to have breakfast. She text me and I did not answer. I did not know she text me. So she called. I accepted even though I should not have.
So at home there was more talk about the house which turned into "are you going to be ok with us living together. I told her not a problem. I see no reason why we can't live together and get along. I told her I know where she stands and she knows where I stand. (I want to work on the M and she does not.)
she says we need to move ahead with this and told me the D will be filed by the end of the month.
I don't get it, she seems so sure that she will never want this M to work. So sure it's over. Is she sure?? Is there any possibility she has even considered it in the last 2 months??
Does she see the changes and not trust them or ? Does she not believe me? I don't get it.
You are being tested noedphi, think of it that way and think of it to yourself, don't ask her if she is testing you.
Every action she does positively or negatively against you is a test, conscious or subconscious. Spellfire (god bless you buddy) told me to act like a strong wall, weather the storms because there will be quite a few of them and view all of these things as tests. Show her you are strong regardless of what happens - believe that you are strong because you are and you can handle anything that comes your way.
Stop making excuses like I can't do this because i have no money, worked too many hours, don't have this, don't have access to that. Find a way. I don't care how long it takes or what it requires, just find a way. Seriously if you need something to occupy your spare time with, find a part-time job doing something, or volunteer your time somewhere, just do something and continue being strong throughout all of this.
