Maybe I should be in piecing part 6?

[Hope4us]

Thanks for the comments Kat, Flynn.

I knew someone would jump on it.

What I struggle with is what Mel posted. Am I just hyper sensitive now and she's really just being how she's always been? And if so, why do I now have a problem with it?

I posted before, but it probably needs repeated, my W has always had a hard time opening up to me. Even when she liked me. About once every six months or so she would let herself be vulnerable with me. So I know it's got to be terrifying for her now. And she's just like her mom. Total stone with her emotions. I'm sure that's why OM was so attractive. Because all it was was fantasy, she could let herself go because there were no expectations. Just passion. Ok, I just had a little puke come up in my throat when I said that.....

I need to think on this more. What keeps going through my head is, why not do the trip? When we go we have a GREAT time. I've been at this so long now anyway, what's another couple months. I'm not going to get transferred before fall anyway, and with the housing market and such, we'd be stuck living in the same house till it happens, so why not give it a last try? In the grand scheme of things, what's a couple more months of showing her what she'll be missing?