Last night I felt like I was just losing it. I couldn't sleep and just tossed and turned, and felt like I am going crazy. I couldn't stop thinking over and over in my head, God Help Me.
H called me this morning, when I was getting ready. I didn't answer my cell but i picked up when he called the regular phone. You know I was disappointed he didn't call me all weekend. But when he calls I was just quiet, if I am not excited and my normal, well what is normal anymore, self he assumes I am mad. He asked if I was mad I said no not really. I said I was just surprised to hear from you. He said you seem like your mad. I asked how his weekend was, he said not very good. I said sorry How come? Now you know what i would have loved to hear was the kids were awful and I missed you so much. LOL. Yes, I am an idiot. But H says I was sicker than a dog all weekend. I said what from? H says, I think I got food poisoning. Ok, now my personality automatically makes me think....Damn Karma is a B*tch. LMAO! No I didn't say anything. But H just says I will just talk to you later. I told him I got SD's check back that I mailed to her a week ago at her mom's that she never got. I went online and paid her phone bill for her on Friday, when she hadn't gotten it yet. So we discussed what to do with her and her money needs. I asked him what he wanted to talk about, on my cell phone he left a VM saying that he wanted to talk. H said nothing, I just wanted to hear your voice. (If you wanted to hear it so bad...why not call on the weekend?) I said Oh, I thought maybe there was something you wanted to talk about. H said no, just missed you. I said missed hearing from you too.
He is supposed to start working tonight on installing my Mom and Dad's water softener. My mom and dad called last night 2 times, but never answered, I figured they were going to ask about him working,and I really didn't want to talk to them. I know that was terrible.
