Oops!!.......I think I've dropped the rope!!

[Silent Chrleader]

Hey, [[BM]].

Thanks for your support. I did get a contact from a guy on the dating site and e-mailed him a reply. In his picture, he is a husky guy with a sweet smile (by no means "gorgeous"), and I just didn't have the heart to "reject" him.

So, in my e-mail, I thanked him for his contact and told him a little about where I was at as far as only just tentatively dipping my toe in the waters of singlehood, and if he didn't want to "waste his time" with me, because I wasn't ready to "jump in", that I understood. But, his reply to me was very sweet and he felt that no time spent with someone with a "caring soul" was wasted. So, I guess I have a new "on-line" friend to add to all my wonderful DB friends!

OK, I have another story for you.....

I was on the alt a couple days ago, and came across "the one that got away". As you know, I have been with my H since I was 17, and he was my first boyfriend. However, if I have what could be called "a past" this guy is it. This was another one of the sweet shy guys (can you tell I have a thing for them!). Anyway, I had liked this guy (I'll call him M), and on my 17th birthday, I had got up the courage to call him and invite him over to my party. Well, he was working and couldn't come to my party. And the next day, I met my H. After I met my H (at his brother's wedding reception), he flew back two days later to Oakland to the Submarine.

The following week, I ran into M again one night while out with friends, and we spent some time talking and he kissed me! And finally asked me out. Well, I went (it was my first date), and I am so embarassed but I was so nervous and you know my big mouth.....I told M about H!! I know!! Such poor form to talk about one guy while out on a date with another, but I had actually known M for several years and we had a friendship, so it didn't feel wrong to tell him. And it's not like he ever told me it botherd him or anything. And that night when he took me home, he gave me my first "real" kiss.....and let's just say that he was a VERY good kisser. A week later I saw him at the school when he brought his brother who was one of my classmates something. We chatted and he gave me yet another kiss then.

But, after that M didn't call me and about 6 weeks later, I got a call from my H whose submarine was coming to makes it's home port in San Diego, and he asked me out.....the rest is history. I saw M twice after that. Once was only about 4 months later. H and I were oficially "together" but he was at sea. I saw M at a friends birthday party. He came over and sat with me and was surprised and seemed a little hurt when I told him I had a boyfriend. I told him to not give me guff because he had his chance and didn't call. He said he was sorry and that he was working 12-14 hour days in his apprenticship program (which I knew he was). Before I left that night, he specifically came over and gave me a hug, and told me to make sure H treated me right.

The last time I saw M was 3 years later. H and I (with D who was 6 months old) flew back to CA so I could be in my best friends wedding. I had lost a LOT of weight (I'll never be that skinny again!). And H and I went out one night when my Mom agreed to babysit, and we went to a video arcade. I saw a guy playing a game and thought it was M. I walked up and leaned over to say Hi to him, and was so embarassed when he looked up and it wasn't him!!! So, I apologized to this guy and walked away to find my H, and I walked around a corner and right there 2 feet in front of me was M! He saw me, came over and gave me a hug. H came over and I introduced them. We played a game of air hockey together and chatted. And then said our goodbyes. I was always glad I looked so good the last time I saw him. And by the way, H knows all about him.

About 7 years ago, I saw a profile of M on Reunion.com and sent an e-mail, but he never replied. His profile said he lives in North Dakota and is happily married, which is nice. I never knew if perhaps he never got my e-mail, or if perhaps his memories of me are not as fond as my memories of him!

Well, on the alt the other day, I came across the profile of M's brother, T, who was also a friend of mine in high school (and I had a crush on him my Junior year......what can I say...I was a normal boy crazy high school girl...at least in my head....I was too chicken to ever actually "go after" a guy) Anway, I e-mailed T, and he replied! It was soooo good to hear from him and he remembers me fondly too. At his direction, I was also able to find M on FB too, and I have e-mailed him. I now wait with baited breath to see if he will reply!

And to add another little twist to soap opera of it all, my sister-in-law, K, who married H's brother, and was also a high school friend of mine, was M's date to his senior prom! (That was a couple years before I spent time with him). So, I forwarded her the e-mail from T so she can see what he's been up to. The three of them (M,T & K) used to car pool to school together since they lived far out of town.

Funny......