Chili recipe is simple. I will write it all out for all of you tomorrow. Thru Day 11. Went ok, got drunk last night and had a blast. Although today I don't feel good about letting down my control of myself. Going dry again. I am not a screaming alcoholic, but I like being in control of all my situations. This doesn't happen ofetn , but two saturdays in row is one too many.
Attitude is good. D17 told me W was over thrusday night, when I went and saw my cousin. she asked D17 where I was. When D17 told her, she asked why I went down there. d17 said I don't know, he jsut did. she knew why, but told me she didn't thnk it was any of her business what I do. I didn't ask why she came over or anything. she worked yesterday because she kept calling from the store to talk to D17. when she finally got hold of her, she only talked for a few minutes.
Son told me that he and D17 got into it last tuesday. He told me she said some very hurtful things about me. didn't want to hear it but he told me anyway. She said her mother told her that I treated her badly for a couple of years and thats why she left. D17 told my son if dad had treated me like that I would have left too. Quite honestly I treated her like a queen, always. I was jealous of her heavy flirting, but other than that. Hurt to hear it. But it was also right after I had blasted her on the phone.
More justification on W part I guess. sucks to think she was telling D17 things like that. But....
Still feel like the flu is coming on me. Hopefully I kick it this week.
D12 tomorrow, one day at a time. Talked to a friend of mine the other day (text). I told him how I was going back to church and had given my situation over to God. His response was, good, I think you will be heavily rewarded soon!!!!! very nice to see that.
Aynway, go to fly check you all out tomorrow with the chili recipe...
