Snodderly....it wasn't exactly very safe sex no....so I will be visiting the doctor. I am so ashamed... I NEVER thought I would do ANYTHING like this.... I did tell him afterwards that this is too soon I just feel terrible about this....
I have been praying to God that I have not contracted anything horrible, ...so that I may not see my kids grow up.... I am scared, ashamed and feel stupid and foolish.
LolaL, thank you for your hugs, I really need them, as I feel a total looser....H was my only lover ever and now I went and ruined it by doing this....
I'm sorry that I have let everyone down and especially myself.
Snodderly....this won't happen again...but I know that I shouldn't have sent H a TM...there was just no one else...he was the only one who knew I was out on a date. And he had wished me so much luck and fun....now I have to face H tomorrow as a total looser....
I am so embarassed....so ashamed. Forgive me God, for I have sinned.
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
