Cinders, Don't beat yourself up. My concern is for your safety. I do hope that you practiced "safe" sex. If you didn't, you'll need to see your doctor as soon as possible. Hopefully you've not contract something.
Isn't this the same guy you weren't going to lead on? Well...now you've got to find a way to end this situation if you are not interested in him. BTW, you aren't the first to have this happen and you surely will not be the last. I would find a way to end it and soon. This guy knew you were ripe for the picking.
Cinders, again, don't beat yourself up.
P.S., if it happens again, don't tell your h about it. Okay?
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
