The Flames are Still Rising....

[blindsided1]

Yes T, I owe you a drink.

So, met with SO2 last night. You're lovely. She's right about her H texting her ....she got multiple calls and texts while we were together...too funny. My H called too, but left no message??? It was nice to swap stories and actually watch our daughters play together. They were really cute. I had a great evening with you.

So, this morning, I text H telling him I can bring K at 10:30am. He doesn't respond, I text 3 more times over the course of a half hour...no response. I call. No answer. Finally, he texts me at 10:30 asking when I am dropping her off. WTH? I get there...he looks like crap. I asked him if he was sick, he said no. I told him he didn't look well. He was grumpy. So, the drop off was quick. I miss him. I watched him transfer K from my car to his and the whole time all I could think was...I miss my H. But, I'm over it now. I'm back home. Plan to stay busy. I feel a little lonely today, though.

Last night I was talking to my best friend. I've known her for 25 years, she is K's godmother and she was my maid of honor. All of a sudden, she tells me that she is tired of me being nice to people that treat me like crap. That I need to weed out the friends who are not good to me and make more time for her. She told me it pisses her off that I am kind to my H. That I bought him lunch (after court in November), and that I am more concerned with having a good R with him instead of giving back to the people that have been there for me. I was blown away. I had no idea she ever felt any of that. She went on to tell me that she's not always going to be here and that I need to realize that. I am not sure what is going on. I told my Mom and my Mom thinks that she may not really be upset about my R with my H. But, more that she may be upset that I now have a baby and can't spend time with her, as much. I don't know. Anybody have any ideas? In the 25 years of our friendship, she has never acted like this. And, the really hypocritical thing about it is....she was head over heals for some guy that was horrible to her and used her. She cried over him for a year. They would go months without seeing each other or talking and she pined away for him and still is even though they weren't ever in a committed R, and they haven't spoken since October. And, I was there....even though I was totally depressed about my own sitch...I was there to let her cry and not judge her or her decisions... to just listen. And, now, I am just blown away by her statement...that's all I can say about that.