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[karen43]

What is your state of mind? I could use some direction to get there. Would you say you are still optimistic about a recon or are you just going to leave it to a higher being to decide?

Thanks, PM. My state of mind has been amazingly great lately despite job hunting and house-hunting. Very calm and peaceful.

I am very negative about a recon, I think there's about 1% chance in my case, but I've learned not to make plans about my future: I will do this or whatever. Just letting things unfold as they will. I don't think I would ever go back (and certain people around here wouldn't let me) to where I was a year or 2 ago being yelled at and insulted by my H. I have too much self-esteem for that now. I think my H would have to break up with the OW, which I know will happen at some point (she's been married 3 times already), but he'd have to go to MC and IC and way too much stuff. So maybe this is my opportunity to have a R in the future with someone that's faithful, kind, and a Christian. I don't really think my H is any of those at this point, so maybe it's for the best.

Things keep getting better, and my PMA, so that's good. I live in a small town and it's like a little network. Everyone in town I think knows I'm looking for work so I think it's just a matter of time. I ordered some books on interviewing b/c I want to work on my interviewing skills, and I kind of feel like I'll get the right job for me. I'm keeping super busy with everything and moving in the next month, so if I don't get a job for a month or 2, I think it would be ok. Karen