Hi Mak, welcome to piecing. You are saying what all of us feel. Why us, it wasn't our fault (boo hoo). But that's the problem it was, just as much as our WAS otherwise why would they walk away? This is a HARD road to travel with many pitfalls, what's up one day is down the next. Like Shiny said focus on the positives.
take care
Fran
if we can be sufficient to ourselves, we need fear no entangling webs Erica Jong