Renee,
You are still allowing that woman to have entirely too much space in your head. She's not paying rent...boot her out of your thoughts.

If you want to take someone to court w/you, then take a family member or a close friend. You are doing this for your support, not to show him that you're moving on, etc. Whatever you do w/your life from the time he walked, etc., everything is now for you and your son. The changes you make have to be for YOU and they must become permanent if you like them. Nothing you do now is for your h. He's gone and he will most likely be gone for a good while. So, live your life to the fullest and do it for you.

Good luck tomorrow! Hold your head up high, back straight and put a smile on your face. Show this man you can be the best that you can be.

Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.