Sandi and CIW, thanks so much for your kind words. I think I deserve happiness yes but right now my happiness is attached to my H and my immediate family. As a little girl, I have always wish to have an intact family of my own. (My parents are happily married for more than 40 years now. Not great R but pretty good considering it's been 40 years. They have had ups and downs.) So that was my BIG dream. To let go of that dream is extremely difficult for me. I want my H to be part of that dream but there is nothing I can do to make him. So I need patience and DB.
All of you out there who have written to me , your thoughtful words help because I try very very hard to be the kind of person that you both have described and to have that validated is so important to me. I know that our identities are secret here so we are able to say things we normally might not say to our friends face to face. But it is still extremely touching to have you all express these thoughts about me. Even on the web, it's nice to have these words in my head. Thank you.
Me:39 H:40 S:9 D:7 First Bomb ONS:June 07 Second Bomb OW: March 08 Separated: March 08 M:15 yrs T:18 yrs H deep into A with OW Achieved ACCEPTANCE May 30, 09
