Hi...I think I'm comfortable playing it safe. My biggest fear is hearing A's voice empty. I really believe that he likes total control. I really believe total darkness is the best way. When he calls, maybe the 'I'm not available' game is the best way. I'll see his reaction tomorrow.
I did like the way he told the person in his office that he was on the phone and it was 'important'...the customer in the waiting room can wait a minute!
I analyse too much...I drive myself crazy. I'm going to try it tomorrow. Act as if...Be lighthearted...mirror...easy breezy...
I do know that I am happy to have a great guy for a roommate. We are good friends. I love my parents. I am so thankful that they are feeling better. My Dad is doing so much better. My Mother is feeling better, seeing a little better, and getting around more. I am so happy that they have been strong enough to help me this week with my house disaster. I wish that they knew how much I appreciate them. I love them both. I am fortunate to have them both. I still miss my husband.
Tomorrow will be a test. I was wondering. When I feel safe and comfortable, maybe A feels anxious and needs to retreat to feel comfortable. When he retreats to feel safe and gain a sense of control, I feel threatened and anxious.
