Well, the basketball game was okay. D4 and I left early because she wasn't feeling good. Could have been the two hot dogs and nachos she downed before the nurses gave her some chocolate.

Kevin and AFWAW, the only thing I am sure of is that I won't let him use this against me the rest of my life. Yeah, I made a huge mistake. But so did he. S13 came over today. I guess he told S13 that he is afraid that someday he would be so mad he might hit me. And I am like whatever. I asked S13 what he thought about that and he thought it would never happen, that H is using it as an excuse. Which I agree. But whatever. It is a pile of BS and we all know it.

John, thanks about a billion for betting he doesn't have the stones. I pray you are right. But I just can't care anymore. I was still on the roller coaster - still am to a much smaller extent. My goal for this M was for us to be right with each other and try to grow from this. It is obvious he doesn't want that right now. But he doesn't see that things can change either. He's convinced that how things are right now is how they will be for the rest of his life.

You can't be at her beck and call. I had to pace myself too. H offered himself up this week as...cake...for propriety's sake, and I turned him down. Not on my new bed. This bed is for married people. We just can't jump every time they want it. We don't do that for our kids, why would we do it for our spouses?

We went to Mardi Gras in the Clouds today (me and kids) and had a great time. The bread pudding was awesome! I may have to go back tomorrow.... \:\) Next year, at that conference, one of the ladies and I are going in search of the Best Bread Pudding EVER.

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Melissa

"Standing knee deep in a river and dying of thirst."

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