I've Come Full Circle 24

[kat727]

Thanks for the kind words and sweet thoughts. Bryan has to grow up someday and Mommy and Daddy won't be around to pick up the pieces forever. I was talking to my Dad yesterday, not about the D or B but just about knowing something has to be done and doing it, getting it done. I get it from him. It may not always be the easy road but it is the road I pick.

I am not sure if ex is getting any of it. In our argument earlier this week he was constantly saying get past it. Quit living in the past. My whole "issue" is that ex never discussed/resolved anything with me. He didn't want to face any problems with me so ultimately decided that he didn't love me. So we have never resolved anything together about it and we won't I am sure.

So I face what I can about it on my own and know that he wasn't strong enough to face down his demon(in the form of skank) and went off blindly down the road. Lots of broken promises left in his wake.

I don't know why in our arguments that he goes for the juggler and hurts me to my very core. I already have doubts about my
future with another man and he throws out in his nasty way that it will be at least 10 years before I find anyone that would have me. I hope that isn't true but it could be.

I guess I am not as healed as I thought if he can still hurt me. Well back on the horse I guess.

kat