I've been invited to a baby shower for one of the wives in h's "group" (of which ow is part of). There is a good chance that she will be invited and will go. My first inclination was to just go. I like the woman the shower is for...she's actually going to be moving away (far) soon and I also missed her wedding shower (for other reasons). I haven't seen ow since right before the bomb (actually at this woman's wedding, I think!) and I was feeling ok about going and not losing it.
I was just about to send an rsvp saying "I'll be there" and it has occurred to me that I just don't think I can do it...not because I'll lose it or anything but just because I really don't want to see her. not now, not ever. There was a time when I thought that I DID want to see her but I really, simply don't want to.
I don't know why I need support and approval on this...it feels right to not go. but I guess there's a part of me that's wondering?
Anyway...I guess I'm just blathering.
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
