I guess what I have been going through is similar to drowning. I occasionally feel like I may NOT be able to save myself so the fight or flight wants to kick in and I want to struggle... I equate this to my occasionally feeling like not being able to stop the W from a D, so I am wanting to struggle with it. I haven't though. She acts as though there is no changing her mind. She is on a direct course and nothing is stopping her direction. Other than not filing... She may be waiting on the summertime (for the S-11) I don't know. There are no clues divulged. I keep thinking "I have stayed here(home)and am supporting my commitment to our family"... "I have made my mistakes and I take full responsibility". I know it won't make a dent in her armor, not even a dimple. She is at her parents this weekend, with the S. We'll see if anything happens when she comes home tomorrow.
Also, we are still sleeping in the same bed. What if there has been a PA that shows up...?
