. Would you mind saying what about what you scanned in that book freaked you out? I ask because I have become gun shy about reading since so many of the books spin my head and heart around. I guess I'm not ready to deal/face some of the truth/reality of the intricacies of all this insanity.
Also, you wondered if you could say to your H:
Quote: "look, I'm gonna get sad sometimes and I don't want to have to apologize for it".
I think you absolutely can say it and should. I have said that to my H because I felt he needed to know that my occasional wistful sadness in his presence is ME dealing with the demons and NOT something he's doing presently. I think letting him know that has help illeviate(sp?) his 'flight' mechanism at those times.
