Well, I finally finished reading all the posts on this thread. I am so glad PM has been faithful to stick by you and keep you on track. I gathered that you did choose to be with a group of friends on V-day and I was proud of you for doing that.
There is a young man that I have been talking with in Newcomers and I am going to send you the link to his first post. He may stumble and mess completely up today, but so far he has been amazing in his re-inventing himself. I encourage you to read his thread b/c he had very low self-esteem and has turned that all around, not b/c of what any of us said, but he did it all by himself b/c he saw what was happening to him in his life. He, like so many LBH's was totally focused on his WAW, but I love the way he handles things now. I think it would give you some ideas maybe in your own stitch.
I think you are doing fine. It takes a long time to get over those hard bumps and rocks in the road when the WAW is so cold and giving you a hard time. When you were lying in bed thinking about your life and how you had changed after the baby was born, I imagine a few things people had posted to you were in your subconcious mind also. That shows how this board can truly help people when they are going through bad times.
Well, here is his link and maybe you will want to communicate with him and the two of you can be helpful to each other.
