Sage & Kitti: I think that the "feeling like a fool" and "being made a fool of" is one of the biggest parts of the humiliation I have felt.
I've recently identified that the feeling of being humiliated is one the things that fuels pain, anger, and mistrust in a big way.
In reality, though, I didn't choose to go outside of our relationship or do any of the other really ugly thing that A's are made up of.
In reality, H never intended to cause me humiliation.
In reality, the feeling of foolishness and humiliation has more to do with my own ego and also worrying about what OTHER people may think about my sitch.
