just wanted to stop by and thank you for stopping in on my thread. as you noticed i am having a hard time with negativity these days but you helped me by asking me to come up with three positives for myself, which i did, so thank you
also - i have a question for you. can you remember 3.5 months post bomb, and how you were feeling? i was doing really well there for awhile not thinking about the affair or concentrating on the OW yet over the last two weeks i have been having dreams again and i find myself focusing on how FOOLISH they both made me feel during all the time i thought they were doing something and they talked me out of that thinking. i think i have nailed my negativity on "feeling like a fool"
i just want to cry when i think of any joy they might have gotten out of "well, we fooled her again, she believed us again" and them doing whatever affair people do. that just sickens me to the point of wanting to yack.
yup, thinking i am the fool, that is where i am right now - bringing tears.
