WAW New life with OM

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I have a good support system with family and friends and the church beside this wonderful forum. I'm saving up money to call a DB coach as soon as I can. I have a good therapist who is working with me weekly and is proud of how I am handling everything right now. He told me 3 rules he had for me: 1) don't turn to alcohol; 2) don't turn to street drugs 3)don't fall in love. I told him not to worry about these as I'm not a big drinker, never tried drugs and am still madly in love with W. He then told me a way I can get over W is by falling in love with someone else as love is a powerful drug in and itself. I said wow and then he told me if I break any of his rules that he would work with me, which made me feel comforted. However, as I told my C, I more than anything want to save this M and I do pray everyday for my W as I know something is wrong even if she doesn't. I think she is having a MLC but her C doesn't believe in them, so she thinks that being with OM is her new happiness and path in life. I took my vows very seriously and have taken care of W after each of her surgeries and physical illnesses. This particular one is very tough and gut retching and I'll stand by her as long as I can. I have told the kids that their mother still loves them even though she may not be living at home currently. S15 is stll very angry and S13 just wants to spend time with her. I am keeping a log of the amount of time W spends with the kids. So far, not much time with S15, more with S13 but somedays not more than a car ride to/from school. I don't think its enough and I was a good father and husband and am working on myself to be a better person, so I can be an even better father and husband.