Thanks for checking in on me! I haven't been sleeping very well & I just can't get my mind off my ex.
I know you are going to think I'm crazy but I always made him an Italian Cream Cake from scratch for his birthday, it was his favorite. Well, I made one today. I don't know why I did but I just did. I've been wanting one anyway & I guess being this time of year I did it. I can eat a little & freeze the rest.
I'm not quite as depressed as I was & I am better today, not thinking about him as much but it has been hard.
I'll get thru somehow! Thanks for being here for me!!!
Are you still getting out of the house?? Do something fantastic for yourself! Keep yourself busy and try not to think about your H. I know how hard it is to do that! You can do it!!!!!!!!
I agree with YR's advice. You need to get out of the house and keep yourself busy so that you don't have as much time to think about H. It is so very hard but you have to push yourself to do it.
Me47 H46 S13 M16 Piecing since May/09
"Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it." Lou Holtz
N, I think what's happened is you've taken about 5 steps back. The passing of your pup, Valentine's Day and other triggers are creating all of the emotional turmoil in your life right now. Please, please get out of the house and put your focus on something else. I understand that you miss him terribly, but that's not going to bring him back right now. He's got to go through this entirely and hopefully he'll wake up again some day. For now, let's try to help you find something of interest. Okay?
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Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
To start with I could not believe that it should get easier after a while but it is true. Although I am still sad at times I feel better. Time does seem to heal wounds!
You should really get out of the house more often. It takes your thoughts away from your H. I hope you will be able to GAL and by doing that also get a PMA.
Thank you all for posting to me. Snodderly, I do think you are right & I took 5 steps back after my puppy girl died. Plus the letter from that woman & my ex's birthday 2 days before Valentine's Day. It was just sad.
I'm feeling better now & not as sad. I have a couple of clients that I do their books for them so I've been working on that. But I've got to get a job!!! Since my alimony will reduce 500.00 in April it is going to hurt. The economy is so bad right now that jobs are hard to find.
My PMA is better, I have started exercising again & I'm doing it everyday except the weekends. I've been getting out a little bit but plan to start doing better. Can't afford to do much but a walk in the park my other dog & I enjoy. It is sad though b/c where we go is where my ex & I used to take the girls walking. I'm making it though.
Thank you for being here & letting me talk with you all, it means a great deal to me!!!! ((((HUGS))))
I am glad to hear that you feel better. Yes, jobs are hard to find in this crisis but I hope you will be successful.
I also go to places I went with H since I still live in the same area. I often think it must be so much easier for H to forget me since nothing reminds him of me where he is. But where I am everything reminds me of him.
It is great that you started excercising. I should also do some. All I ever do is about 10 minutes before breakfast if I feel like it, but that is not very often. I really have to pull myself together and do it every day. It helps me a lot to keep my weight.
Have a lovely week-end, and I hope you will have some fun things on. (((HUGS)))
