Well today he does the "I don't want to hold this over your head" bit. And finally I just told him to file the papers. Of course my wants will change. It will be one more thing where I will change my mind according to him. And whatever. If he thinks he's gonna hold it over my head, then I would be stupid to want to stay in this marriage. Who wants a marriage like that?? So whatever. Maybe he will come out of his dumb fog before it's final, but I don't care anymore. I don't know why I put up with this cr@p as long as I have. I won't be the one to file, but I'm sure not gonna slow this train down either. I will be friendly, but we will not be friends. I don't get it, but whatever. He will have to answer to the kids and his parents. My parents wanted this all along, so it's no love lost there.
Thanks for listening to me rant. I wish things were different. I wish we could both do better by each other, but he's not willing, and I deserve to not have this held over me or be punished for this the rest of my life.
Headed to the basketball game. Ya'll have a good night. Will check in later!
Melissa
"Standing knee deep in a river and dying of thirst."
